Six months later, I was unloading canned goods behind the church when Claire walked up with a clipboard.
“You’re early.”
“I haven’t earned honor.”
“Truck started for once.”
I handed her an envelope.
“What’s this?”
“First payment. For the boots, the coat, and the mechanic bill. I can’t pay it all back today.”
Claire opened it slowly. “She didn’t ask for this.”
“I know.”
“Then why do it?”
“Because she’s not here to make me.”
“She didn’t ask for this.”
Claire tucked the check into her folder. “Evie would say Thursdays are a decent start.”
That evening, I visited Evie’s grave with the printed message in my pocket.
I tore it into pieces, then closed my fist around them.
“I won’t leave my shame here,” I said. “You carried enough.”
I had married Evie because I wanted her life.