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I work back-to-back shifts at the hospital just to keep my boys fed and a roof over our heads, and every single day I carry a silent fear that something will happen while I’m away.
The day a police officer stood in my driveway holding my toddler, my worst fear had finally come true… just not in the way I had always pictured it.
My phone buzzed in my coat pocket at 11:42 that morning, right in the middle of checking on a patient in room seven.
I almost ignored it. I still had three more patients to see, and my break wasn’t until two.
But something made me step out into the hallway, excuse myself for a moment, and look at the screen.
I almost ignored it.
It was an unfamiliar number. I answered anyway.
“Ma’am? This is Officer Benny from police dispatch. You need to come home right away. There’s an important matter we need to discuss.”
I pressed my back against the wall in the hallway.
“Are my children okay? What happened?”
“Please just come home, Ma’am,” the officer said. “As soon as possible.”
The call ended before I could ask another question.
“You need to come home right away.”
I told my charge nurse it was a family emergency, then left in the middle of my shift with my hospital badge still clipped to my scrubs. On the drive home, I ran two red lights without even thinking about it.
The drive was twenty minutes, and I spent every second of it imagining the worst.
My oldest, Logan, was seventeen. He’d had two encounters with the police before, though neither had been serious by any reasonable standard. When he was fourteen, his friends set up a bike race down our street. It ended with three boys nearly slamming into a parked car, and an officer lecturing them in the hardware store parking lot.
Logan still says that was the most embarrassed he has ever been.