I feel the brief exchange like a phantom breath of ice across the back of my neck. Until this exact moment, I had treated Lucía’s nightly intrusion as a mere problem orbiting around shame and social propriety. A severe boundary issue.
But now, a canyon of a possibility opens up beneath my feet. What if Lucía has not been sleeping between me and Esteban because she fears the dark, drafty hallways of an unfamiliar city house?
What if the monster she is hiding from isn’t in her head? What if he is lying right beside me?
The thought is so incredibly ugly, so violently disruptive, that my mind attempts to reject it at once.
Not Esteban.
Not my husband, who patiently rubs foul-smelling ointment into my mother’s shoulder. Not the meticulous man who folds plastic grocery bags into perfect triangles under the kitchen sink. Esteban is not a cruel man. He is absolutely not one of those leering, dangerous men whose darkness clings to them like cheap cologne.
And yet. That look in the kitchen this morning. The rigid way Lucía avoided his eyes. The deliberate flashlight at the door.
Late that afternoon, as I stand on the flat concrete roof hanging damp, heavy sheets along the clothesline, my mother joins me, carrying a faded plastic bucket of clothespins.
“The neighbors are talking again,” she says, her tone dripping with disapproval. “Mrs. Delgado said her daughter claims she saw Lucía sneaking into your room after midnight carrying her own pillow. Twice. Clear as day through the window.”
I force my facial muscles to remain entirely neutral. “And?”
“And people will imagine far worse things if you give them enough silence to work with,” she warns, her eyes searching my face for a crack.
Her words sting sharply because they are undeniably true. In tight-knit neighborhoods like ours, mystery is a lit match dropped carelessly into dry summer grass.
“I’ll handle it,” I say sharply, snapping another clothespin.
My mother stops and studies me intently. “Will you?”
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